We Love Rockband!!

We love Rockband at our house and I wanted to do some Rockband scrapbook pages!  These turned out super fun.  I love the one of my boy "in the band".  And it's fun to do some pics of us with him playing drums.

Credits: Designer's Scraps

Cowboy Page

What a cutie pie!  There was such a long time that he would only wear those cowboy boots!!  Everyday! With sweat pants or shorts or whatever
he he :) Soooo cute!  I love that kid.  He looks so grown up in these photos!

Credits: Pasion by lisettescrap

Pink Love

This is possibly my favorite photo of all time of Chloee.  Probably because I remember taking it of her so well.  We were in her hospital room like usual sitting in the glider chair just me and her watching TV or something.  She was in my arms (she almost always was) and I had the camera held out in my other arm away from us.  The black at the bottom of the pic was my shirt.  She looked so beautiful in my arms and I am so thankful this photo turned out exactly as beautiful as she looked then.  My heart ACHES to hold her again... Miss you Chloster  Love, Mommy

Credits: Pasion by lisettescrap

Please don't take my sunshine away

He is my sunshine...

You are my sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray, please don't take my sunshine away

My biggest fear is to lose my last living child.  He's 5 years old and perfectly healthy but still - the doctors can tell us nothing for certain about his chances of developing the disease at an older age than his sisters.  We think he's okay.  We think he'll live but part of me is waiting for the floor to drop out from underneath me yet again and he will get sick from something and we'll know he's going to die too.  I'd say God, please no... but I already did that twice and it didn't work...

Credits: Haynay Designs

More Scrap Pages for my kids

Some pages for all of my kids! My favorites are the top and bottom ones.

The top one is called What your Eyes See and it's about what Chloee is seeing in heaven.

And then there are 2 pages for T.  The purple one is called Purple Graffiti for Bree-Elle.  I wanted to do one for Bree from T since it was her birthday.  He's drawing purple butterflies for her :)

The bottom photo is from the children's museum called Out of a Fairytale.  Journaling reads: One of your favorite things to do at the children's museum is to dress up as a knight and put on a play!  You are so creative and imaginative.  I love to hear about the brave knight and all of the adventures you go on!  Your favorite is to slay a dragon and save the princess of course!  That is probably my favorite time at the museum!

Credits: Fanfan Rues des Anges

A Willy Wonka's chocolate factory scrapbook page!

I adore this page! So fun and cute!!! Here's my boy - it looks like he's right in the middle of Willy Wonka's chocolate factory, on a slide of chocolate! Soooo fun!

Credit: Anelia's kit The Sweetest Thing

Princess Pages

Each week, they have Disney digital scrapbooking challenges over at MouseScrappers.com, a Disney fan and scrapbooking site.  They are super fun and have great prize packages for those that complete a challenge.  Check it out here

This week, the challenge was to create a Disney scrapbooking page with pastel colors.  Of course, I thought of doing a princess page with a princess fairy kit I was working on for JKCreations and even though I don't have any pics of my girls with any of the princesses - I decided to do a few Disney Princess inspired pages for them anyway!

The Cinderella page is for my Chloee.  It says, "A Dream is a Wish your heart makes.... I made a wish and you came true."  We love you Chloee!

The Tinkerbell page is for my Bree-Elle.  I found the perfect quote for it... "And in the end, Peter Pan stole Tinkerbell's wings so she would never leave."  How we wish we could have stolen her wings and kept her here with us forever...  Miss you Bree

Credits: JKCreations

I love you more than rainbows!

For my son, the light of my life...
"I love you more than rainbows and beautiful blue skies!"

quote from a children's book by Susan Crites called I Love You More Than Rainbows

Credits: Haynay Designs

Chloee's Favorite Color is Yellow

We don't know what her favorite color would have been.... but there have been so many things that have happened, it has to be more than coincidence, that we think Chloee's Favorite Color is Yellow.  So I wanted to do a page for her and her fav color :)

Credits: Haynay Designs

More Easter Scrapbook Pages

I love these super fun Easter themed pages!

The top one is our Bree-Elle when she was first "hatched".
The second one is where I put a little chick in his hands :)
The next, "In an Easter Bunny House" is when T made his own little house.  It was so cute and fun!
And the last page is from our city's Easter egg hunt - he found a golden egg and was soooo super excited about that!

Credits: DigiDesignResort and BlueMaigeDesigns

Easter Scrapbook Pages

Some cute Easter pages from when our son was little! 
Credits: Just Jaimee

In Loving Memory, Remembrance Scrapbook Pages

These pages were made with a very special kit by a designer friend - Just Jaimee.
She made this digital scrapbooking kit in honor of me and my angel daughters.  It is called Just for Denise Never Forgotten by Just Jaimee
I feel so honored and thankful for this kit created especially for us and I am so thankful to have the perfect kit to scrapbook these memorial pages.  Scrapping my girls helps me keep them alive.  Thank you soooo much Jaimee!
The last page has the lyrics from the Josh Groban song To Where You Are - one of the songs that we played at Bree's funeral.

Fishing Page and Monkeys at the Zoo Page

A fun page for when we went fishing and camping on Chloee's Birthday.  Well, camping meaning staying at a hotel... he he :)

And a page of my little bro and my boy at the Denver Zoo - monkeyin' around :)

Credits: Photocowgirl, Misty O'Brien, and GingerScraps collab

Toy Story Mania Disneyland Digital Scrapbooking Pages!

Here are some super fun Disneyland Toy Story Mania pages!  These are just so dang cute.  I love him in his glasses!  so fun!  We just loved this ride that's new to Disneyland's California Adventure park.  It's like a virtual carnival game ride.

Credits: MandaBean's You've got a friend in me kit and Photocowgirl's Extreme Cluster templates (for the red striped page only)

Beautiful Angel for us to Love

For our Bree-Elle, our beautiful angel send down to us to Love - and we will never stop loving her...
Love how all you see is her beautiful blue eyes in this page.

Credits: Haynay Designs

Chloee's a Gift, a Letter to Heaven, and My Grieving Bleeding Heart

These are my pages that I made this week.  They are all so very different.

The first is a page for Chloee called Chloee's a Gift.  It's so super sweet and bright and beautiful just like she is/was.  I love that photo of her!

The second page is a Letter to Heaven.  Sometimes I write to them and I wanted to do a page with a letter to heaven...

The last one is so dark.  I love it.  I wanted to do a page to show how much I hurt and the pain I've been through losing 2 daughters.  I feel it shows so much how much my heart has broken... and it answers the question of how could my heart ever be reparable with that kind of damage?...  it can't and it won't ever be... and it just feels good to express that even though it's painful.  And yes, I bought that heart with skeleton shirt so that I could cut the heart and wear it on days that I'm hurting...

Credits: Veronica Spriggs

More Pages for my Girls

I've been working on some pages for Diana's Creations new kit called The Smell of Flowers

The first page is called Bree Grows in Heaven :)  So cute and fun! in her little flower pot in heaven.  That's my favorite picture of her - it's the one on her headstone except it's in purple.

The second and third pages use the lyrics in a song that I love called Bubbly by Colbie Caillat.

Bree's page says "You make me smile, please stay for awhile."  I remember thinking that every day she was here just wanting her to stay... Until she got sooo sick and the seizures were so bad that we let her go.

Chloee's page says "Wherever you go, you're in my soul."  That's not exactly how the song goes, but that's how I say it in my head... 

Pages for my girls

I worked on some pages for my girls.
The first one is called Bree's Floral Heaven.  That pic of her is when she was just born.  You can just see how she fits in her daddy's hand - sooo tiny and beautiful.
The other one is called The first hole in my Heart.  That one is of Chloee.  It's a beautiful page but the reason I like it is because the heart actually has a hole in it - it's hard to tell but it's there.  I knew I wanted to use that heart on a page.  This page makes me happy - I love how it symbolizes the hole that she left in my heart.  And how I keep her in my heart even though my heart is not whole.

Credits: Fan fan rues des Anges

Birthday Boy Pages!

Love these birthday pages of my boy!  It was his 2nd birthday (he's 5 now) and I just can't believe how big he is now...  Thank goodness for these happy days and our living son!

Credits: Haynay Designs

ChloeeBug Pages

My little ChloeeBug!  I was so happy to do these pages for her.  The body is actually Bree in her ladybug costume but I put Chloee's face in the photo because Bree is our BumbleBree and Chloee is our ChloeeBug.  Then I turned the red ladybug costumed pink - because how could I not?!!
It makes me happy to be able to do a page like this - she's been gone 3 years and I'm just happy to be able to "make" new photos and pages for her!  Love you Chloee Bug!

Credits: Pixel Perfect Designs

Growing in Heaven page for Chloee

A page for Chloee called Growing in Heaven!  We miss you Chloster.
I just love that little angel hanging from the vine!  I wonder what Chloee's doing in heaven...

Credits: Kristi W Designs

Growing Like a Weed and You are the World!

Some pages for our little weed!  he he
It seems like every morning, I ask him if he grew last night and he sure seems like it.  He's so tall!  I remember as a baby he was soooo tiny and it wasn't until a year and a half that he really sprung up.  Now, he's 5 years old and wears a size 7 :)
He certainly is the world to me!

These pages were made for the Going Green Pretty Scrappy collab - but since they closed this kit is no longer available...

Happy Birthday in Heaven to Bree-Elle

Happy Birthday Baby Bree!  I can't believe you'd be 3 years old.  I wonder what you'd be like.  I wonder if you'll come be with us today...

Today, we will remember you, eat cake, sing to you, and let purple balloons go -  to you in heaven.  We are trying to get a children's museum membership worked out to give to the hospital in your memory.  It makes me happy to think that because of you families at the hospital will be able to go have some fun together time at the museum.

Every day's a lifetime without you sweetheart.  Happy Birthday BumbleBree.  We love you... we miss you... we just want to be with you

credits: let's celebrate by kasia designs

I Adore You and Bring on the Rain, if you are my Rainbow

I adore him!!
As long as he is here, we will survive and continue loving.
These pages made using Delicious Scraps new kit Spring is In 

My Wish for you

My Wish for You - Do What you Love page for my boy

Journaling is from the Rascal Flatts song My Wish:
I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big

Credits: Just Jaimee