Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Happy Birthday to my Lost Princess

The movie Tangled is without a doubt my favorite movie of all time.  It has such a huge significance  to me and correlates to my life in so many ways.  My favorite part is when you see her parents, the King and Queen, on her 18th birthday - still crying, still missing their baby girl that was taken, sending off lanterns in her memory.  I will be no different.  No matter how many years pass, I could be 99 years old, and I will still miss my girls.  Nothing will change that.  I will still cry and hurt because I will still love them then.
Today is my daughter, Bree-Elle's 4th birthday.  She's my baby and it's hard to believe that she wouldn't be a baby anymore.  It feels like yesterday that she died in my arms cuddled in bed with us.  How could she be 4 years old?  How could I have missed out on so much??  I don't know how I will make it to her 18th birthday but if I do there is no doubt that I will cry that day too.  And like the King and Queen, we will let off our own "lanterns" (balloons) in her memory today still remembering her.  We even ordered her a Tangled birthday cake and decorations for her grave.
One of my best friends said to me last night that Rapunzel "screams Bree-Elle".  She was everything purple and pink, sweet and spunky and a little goofy too.  She was very different from her other sister that died, Chloee.  Chloee was more what I would call a classic Princess - quiet, shy, regal, beautiful.  I'm so thankful I got the chance to know them and love them - a lot of my friends had stillborns and they didn't get that chance.  But the bad side of that is that the suffered very much in their short lives.  They were so sick - thinking of it just physically hurts me and makes me so sick.
Today we will spend the day together as a family.  I am donating blood and we might stop by the hospital to donate some things.  We will spoil our living son and just take it easy on ourselves.
I spent this morning scrappin a page for my Lost Princess, my Bree-Elle, using my latest kit I've been working on.  She was so sick in this photo, but I think it still shows how beautiful she was.
The kit will be out in a few days to benefit a new charity.
Well, my boy is up and singing, "Happy Bree-Elle Birthday".  So I am off to enjoy my last living child.
Here is the wordart from my page as a freebie for you for any Tangled scrapbook pages you need to do or save it for future ones!

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JEN said...

Happy 4th Birthday Bree-Elle!! Sending lots of {hugs} your way today. This SHARE friend is thinking of you and your family on such a difficult day. xoxo

Veronica-Disney Dreamin' Mama said...

hugs and love to you on this day. I think the Tangled story fits her beautifully!

Anonymous said...

Just a quick note to let you know that a link to this post will be placed on CraftCrave in the DigiFree category today [14 Apr 01:00am GMT]. Thanks, Maria

agravette said...

i'm so sorry; just know your babies love you and you'll be with them again one day. hugs!

ang said...

Happy Birthday to your little Bumble Bree!!!
I love you Denise and miss you :) You are an amazing example of love and dedication to your sweet angel babies!

CBH said...

Thank you so much for this post. I want to let you know that I posted a link to your blog in CBH Digital Scrapbooking Freebies, under the Page 7 post on Apr. 14, 2011. Thanks again.

Charlene said...

My heart goes out to you and your family today and every day. Happy Birthday Bree-Elle!

mich said...

What a beautiful, loving, post. Happy Birthday Bree-Elle, and {{hugs}} to you.

Unknown said...

Blessings, I empathize with your pain. Happy birthday to your beauty!

Anonymous said...

Denise, I swear!! you can make me bawl my eyes out every time I visit your blog! My sweet Jonathon would have been 13 this year. It's impossible to believe! I believe I will do something similar on Jon Jon's b-day. Prayers and love to you!