Sunday, February 28, 2010

First Sand Castle!

Sand castles and critters!  The boys had fun making a sand castle until it got washed away :)  I had to put the girls watching from above.  I don't know how they could miss their cute brother's first sand castle!

Credits: Designs by Moo

Yo Ho! Yo Ho! Pirate Pages :)

At LegoLand, they had a ride that the boys just loved!!! It was called Splash Battle and everyone sprayed each other :) Soooo fun!  Love these memories.

Credits: Kristi W Designs

Hating Heaven

Hating Heaven
Why did I put that movie in? I should know better.
I am really HATING heaven right now. Where is our happily ever after? Why
does every show seem to have a happy ending when there is no happy ending in
our life and there never will be. Those people who think there is are WRONG. We
will never see or be with our girls again. I know because I buried them. I put them
in a casket and closed the cover and designed grave markers. I held them in my arms and
felt it as their bodies got cold and saw their glazed eyes. I dressed them in their funeral clothes and held their stiff bodies, saw their decayed skin. I heard autopsy reports and received death certificates. Please do NOT say to me, "Someday."  I HATE "Someday". And I am hating heaven.
I hate heaven because I am NOT THERE. I just want to be there, to be with them.
We should be with our girls and I hate heaven for that.
- agrievingmommy

Credits: Background Paper by Just Jaimee
Clouds and Lighting effects by Azur and her kit Sea you later

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Tractor Fun

After Bree died, we took our son to SeaWorld for the first time.  I love these pics of him playing with tractors and having so much fun in the sand.

Credit: Boys' Toys by Delicious Scraps

Winnie the Pooh Bear

Some Winnie the Pooh pages - First time meeting Pooh Bear and Hmm, how to get that honey?

Credits: Kristi W Designs

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Our Baby BumbleBree :)

Here are some sweet pics of Bree-Elle, our little BumbleBree.  Her Aunt Natalie was the first to give her that nickname and it really stuck - until it somehow became BumBum and then she was mostly called that :)
We love you BumBum...

Credit: Kristi W Designs

The Road to Kindergarten

I can't believe he's starting Kindergarten!
I had to make a school and growing up page to document this important age!
I especially love how you see him grow up on these pages.

Credit: Kristi W Designs

What is heaven like???

One of the things I love about digital scrapbooking is the ability it gives me to create a scene that doesn't exist.  Obviously like these pages above that I made for my girls...I tried to imagine what heaven is like. 
These pages use the lyrics from the song Angels in Heaven by Brandon Silveira that we played at Bree's funeral.

Heaven Needs Angels Lyrics By Brandon Silveira

Heaven needs Angels and hearts that are kind.
Sent for my baby, said “Angel, it’s time.
You come meet me.” But she completes me.
Children are a blessing from God to us all.
Sent down from heaven to keep faith in our hearts.
Sometimes we’re tested. It must be destined.
What do you do when God calls for you?
Where do you go to hide all of the pain.
Hold me tonight. I just want to be by your side.
Sometimes we think we could have done this and that.
Keep living our lives as we did in the past.
But it’s inevitable. This pain’s unbearable.
A short time on earth is all that you’ll miss,
For an eternity with God in complete happiness.
Please know you are missed. I hope you hear this.
What do you do when God calls for you?
Where do you go to hide all of the pain.
Hold me tonight. I just want to be by your side.
Heaven needs Angels and hearts that are kind.
Sent for my baby, said, “Angel, it’s time.”
A road down from heaven is the path which she came.
Returned back to home when God called her name.

Credits for Scrap pages: Designs by Moo

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Salt Water Cures All

Have you ever heard this saying?
The cure for everything is salt water; sweat, tears or the sea.
For a long time now, that has kind of been my grieving motto.  I have done a lot of sweating - ran a lot of miles; a lot of crying - countless tears; and vacationing - which is what the sea means to me since we live a day's drive from the ocean.
Credits: Kristi W

Follow in your Father's Footsteps

"If you do nothing more than follow in your Father's footsteps, I could be no prouder."
I love this photo of my son and his dad and especially how you can see their footsteps in the sand and the big wave in front of them.

Credits: Kristi W Designs

I Believe

A Page for our Chloster called I Believe using the lyrics from the Diamond Rio song.

I Believe Lyrics:

Every now and then, soft as breath upon my skin.
I feel you come back again.
And it’s like you haven’t been gone a moment from my side,
Like the tears were never cried,
Like the hands of time were pulling you and me.
And with all my heart I’m sure, we’re closer than we ever were.
I don’t have to hear or see, I’ve got all the proof I need.
There are more than angels watching over me.
I believe.
Oh, I believe.
Now when you die, your life goes on.
It doesn’t end here when you’re gone.
Every soul is filled with light. It never ends, if I’m right.
Our love can even reach across eternity.
I believe
Oh I believe
Forever you’re a part of me, forever in the heart of me.
I would hold you even longer if I can.
Oh the people, who don’t see the most, see that I believe in ghosts.
If that makes me crazy, then I am.
Cause, I believe.
Oh, I believe.
There are more than angels watching over me.
I believe.
Oh, I believe.
Every now and then, soft as breath upon my skin,
I feel you come back again.
And I believe.

by Skip Ewing and Donny Kees
Performed by Diamond Rio

Credits for scrapbook page: Aliya

Sunday, February 21, 2010

LegoLand Farm Pages

Tys had sooo much fun at the farm play area in LegoLand!!  Check out these cute pics.  LegoLand is the funnest place for little kids - so much better than Disneyland... gasp!  I can't believe I said that.

Credits: Kristi W Designs

For Chloee in honor of her Angel Day

Made these pages for our baby girl's Angel Day last week.  Miss you Chloster!  Sending love to heaven to you

Beach Pics from our LegoLand trip

We had sooo much fun on the beach - until he got dirty and wet - then he didn't like it so much... So like for 2 minutes he had fun he he :)
Credits: Urban Mermaid

Tys meets Angel Chloee page

Took this pic of my son after Chloee died and finally made this scrap page of him meeting Angel Chloee.
Credit: Kristi W Designs

Friday, February 12, 2010

Happy Valentine's Day

My son's valentines were super fun. It says, "You're out of this world valentine."  

And then of course, since he's a 5 year old boy we made a super silly one (check out his eyes) that says "I've got my eyes on you valentine!"

Credit: Faith True

Disneyland CAR pages :) Autopia and Car Toon Spin

Made some fun pages for my boys in cars at Disneyland's Autopia :)

Credits: Dielle Designs

Chloee's Angel Day on Monday

Chloee's Angel Day is Monday. We will run away again - this time to spoil Tys in LegoLand. But she will still be in my heart - always.
Made this scrap page for her - "Beautiful Girl"

Dear Chloee,
We love you. Happy Angel Day. 4 years now you've been gone and we've missed you every day - every second of every day. We will run away again on your Angel day but you will still be in our hearts. Loves to you baby girl - Mommy, Daddy, and Tys

Credits: Kristi W Designs

A Day at Disneyland I will never forget...

A Day at Disneyland I will never forget...
It was February 21, 2006, just 3 days after your funeral.
I was in shock. I didn’t know what to do with myself... no hospital room,
no round the clock medications, no feeding tube, no making your food,
my life was gone.
you were gone, in the ground, in a pink casket, with dying flowers on top.
We ran away, what else could we do?
We took Tyson, our lifeline, and ran or more accurately drove and drove.
Where else would we end up, but Disneyland? The place where we’d found so
much happiness before.
So we went...
and it was a mess, or I was a mess.
I didn’t see or realize that I would never want to be in the Happiest Place on
Earth when my child was in the ground, in a grave, buried.
Who could know what they would feel? Who SHOULD know how that feels?
“Tyson deserves this. He’s been stuck in a hospital room forever.”
And that was true.
But I was heartbroken and I did NOT want to be there.
I tried. I put on a happy face for Tys when he was meeting Mickey, I smiled
as he ran around Tom Sawyer’s Island, and I took
pictures still. But I wasn’t in them.
I was doing the best I could but nothing could be okay unless you came back.
No one could tell me which princess you would have loved, which character would
be your favorite, which ride you’d adore and beg for,
or what toy you would want.
I will never know those things and Disneyland will never be the same...
... ever again.
That day was just a beginning for the life I would lead from then on.
I still hurt, cry and wonder when I’m at Disneyland,
and I always will.

Credits: All scrap stuff from Forrester's Wish Collab Kit. Paper, Clouds, Crown and Mickey Balloon by Lauri Ann HGD, Frame and Heart frame by Kristen, Dandelions by dinskip, Ribbon and glitter trail by Diamante,

Thursday, February 11, 2010

My Winter Angel

My latest scrap page for Bree-Elle is called My Winter Angel.

"Our love will keep her warm" Also, a pic of her graveside - I worry about her getting cold.

Credit: Britt-ish Designs

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Forever Heart Bear Christmas Memorial Gift

Every year, we get our son a Christmas gift from his angel sisters. They "gave" him a Forever Heart Bear because they will always be in his heart.
Made using Kristi W's kit So Beary Sweet.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Valentine's Cards

I've been working on doing Valentine's cards for the family. I ended up making this super sweet card to send out to fam and nurses and so forth from the girls. I love the Angel bears!! So super cute - they are (and paper) by Kristi W
The card says "Sprinkling down love from heaven above to you this Valentine's Day."
Miss my girls. Sending love to them in heaven.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

A Disney Meeting Mickey scrap page

Here's a scrap page I did for my boy meeting Mickey.
I love the pic of him giving Mickey five! Awwwww :)

Credits: Several Elements by Britt-ish Designs , Paper and Bow by As You Wish Designs; String by Laurie Ann HGD; Bracket by LydiaK.